All in Life

Joyfulness

My children take great joy in the smallest things. And I enjoy their joy. Christian obedience is something like this. God, through His Spirit, works in us the smallest of obedience. This becomes the smallest of pleasures. And it pleases Him.

Joy Abides

Joy is no slave. Joy stands outside of that list, for it is hidden in what God has done, what He is doing, and what He will do. Joy abides. Joy looks at the ebb and flow of life and says, “But God.”

missional mulch

I'm grateful to have gotten to know this bunch of folks a lot better - the kind of bonding that occurs when you all look and smell disgusting. It was a treat to see how much you can get done when people work well together, and work hard. My farmer's tan is now several shades darker, even if I never did get a photo-op with a small dark child to post on my Facebook so that everyone would know I did a missions trip.

Profiling Like a Boss

You are in no position of authority or protection whatsoever. There was no reason for you to profile me. This added layer of self-ordained patriotic protection is simply ridiculous. I am glad that my children were not old enough to realize that their father was being profiled for having long hair and a long beard.

Intentionally Being Intentional About Intentionality

I am far from a perfect covenant parents. Instead, I call to mind the promises of God and try to communicate them to my children faithfully. The whole time recognizing that our efforts are analogous to 1) "Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief" (Mark 9:24) or 2) "We have only five loaves and two fish" (Matt 14:17).

wild life

A few years prior to that, some people had trespassed up there, built a dirtbike track, and planted some, um, alternative crops. This town is pretty rural and there's a lot of open space, so you have to assume a great deal of that goes on.

Forgetting What We Never Knew

They will not remember, but they will not be the same. They are real, whole, and complete people. Being able to remember is not the defining element of time being important. They are changing. They are growing. They are being disciplined. They are developing rather funny personalities.

Looking Forward

This isn’t something I can just do away with. I can’t remove it from me. I wish I could. I have spent many nights, praying, crying, weeping for God to take it away. Crying because I keep failing. Weeping because I don’t know that I will ever be able to have the family and life that I so desperately crave, and instead the feeling of impending loneliness descends on me.